251008

HAPPY 1YRS' ANNIVERSARY TO OUR FRIENDSHIP
{Ahbenbaba , Ahkelbaba , Ahsongbaba && Ahxingbaba}

I am sorry . I have to say . This is all i gotta to say . I was really appreciate it ! Appreciate our best friendship that we have been together . I am very happy begin w Ya All . Ya All have always brighten my days to , chill " Hoping our shipping will not be end . I am really so thanks for the past . Thankful for the past have given me that best . I never forgets . I'll never forgets kel , ben , song && xing . Yeahs ! (; From that times till now . I am awaiting . Waiting for this day to be come . I am gonna happy for it . I never ever thought of any friends sides of me . Only Ya All that i thought of lovin' . Never knews i would thought of treating somethings good for Ya All . Never count for any of my friends likes this . Only Ya All . I am going to give it a surprise w . Yes . Finally . I was waiting . But , for these day . There was have a somethings thought in my mind . There was somethings in my mind . Ya All can don't turst me now . Cos' i am not a very good person && was not a trustful person . I have dissapointed to esp; ahkel && ahben . Break Promise . I have break the promise . Have break the promise that we've made . I know Ya All have hate me alots from nows on . Sorries . Really . I am so sorry about it . Hope Ya All can understand . Ya All should know what have happens to me during those day . I have been hurting much for the past . Now i was really hate guys/boys/mens . All on guys . Thats' it & all . && i have started to change my thinkings . Many things have coming out in my mind since that was happens to me . I feels lonely . At thy time i just wanna to be alone . I don't want to contact . Don't wants to contact guys/boys . I hate . Ya All should know . I hate it/thems . Half is i was lazy to contact everybody . Asap only for girls then i will be contact when they was contacting me . I am afraid of love or r/s . I have a fear for guys . A phobia come in . I don't likes . Hate it ! Get off of me ! And i don't know some guys was keeping on contact me/keep on msg me . WTH/F it ?! Stop pestering me lahs ! Stop fking trying to firlts around laas . Stop annoy continually laas . Damns irritatate me !! Irritatting ! Freak && piss off la . I keep on thinking . I don't know . Really . Something wrong . Something there is not rights . Something changing my mind . Why ?! I really don't know . I really don't know why i have this thought . Know what i feels ?! Know what i am thinking ?! No . Cos' you'll never ever understand . I'm different . No . It can't be true . I really change . I am gonna to be change turn back to the past & it was more worst . && i wanted to change . I wanna to be a new alive person agians . Times , i needs . All i need is times now to change everythings in my bad things/life turn to be a good/to be a better person gians . OK ! I want to against w it . I'm sure . Now everythings is really bored to me now . && i wanna quit everythings . I guess that my heart/feeling have told me to "Start Over Again" . Yea yea ... Thats right ! I must be have confidence to myself . I can do it ! Do my best ! I have decided . But anw Ya All still are ways in my heart PBT . Sorry nows on . I just wanna to leave/have the last words to Ahben && Ahkel 'Sorry' . I wish to tell && Hope Ya All can understand //