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what's been keeping me?
what's been monopolizing all my time?
why have i been slacking?
why have the things &&
people i love been neglected?
the giant red space behind me.
im just a piece of poke dots paper . idh the ability(dn't needs me this friends . no more. I am so sick . Ya don't have to call anymore. I won't pick up the phone./)

& you open the door && you step inside
We are inside are hearts
Now imagine your pain is a white ball of healing light...
Thats right your pain

The pain itself is a white ball of healing light
I don't think so

This is your life..
Good t the last drop
This is your life.....
&& its ending one minute at a time

This isn't a seminar...
This isn't a weekend retreat..
Whr you are right nw
you can't even imagine what the bottom will be like

Only aft diaster cn we be resurected
It's only after you've lost everything that you are free t do anything
Nth is static
Everything is falling apart

You are not a beautiful && unique snowflake
You are the same decaying organic material as everyone else
We are all part of the same compost heap
We are the all-singing all-dancing crap of the world

You are nt your bank acc's
You are nt the clothes you wear
You are nt the contents of your wallet
You are nt your bowel cancer

You are nt your grande cofee
You are nt the car you drive
You are nt you fucking as

You have t give up
You have t realize that someday you will die
Until you knw that you are useless

I say let me nvr be complete
I say may I nvr be content
I say deliver me from Sweedish furniture
I say deliver me for clever art

I say deliver me from clear skin && perfect teeth
I say you have t give up
I say roll the ball
&& let the chips fall whr they may

You have t give up.....
I want you t hit me as hard as you can ! (;