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I'm trying to slp,
bt this pain in my chest, it's keeping me awake
&& every breath i take,
feels lyk it's my last.
i want to be fine, i want to be sure.
i want to be a lot of things
&& none of them include you.
i keep telling myself, i'm nt miserable.
i keep telling myself, i'm better off w/o you.
i dnt understand,
Cos' it doesn't make sense the way you broke it off,
took away my heart,
took away all of my friends.
i want to go out
&& get out of this house.
bet to begin again.
is gonna take more than.
i think i'd ever have to give.

i believed that you meant everything you said,
goodbye && thanks for the memories
for the pain && the lies
every time i had to cry
goodbye && thanks for the memories
i believed that i was so cleverly deceived,
by good looks, some charm &&
a brilliant lie.
all the time that was spent, being used, i should have said,
goodbye && thanks for the memories.

i want to knw why, you're such an idiot?!
i want to knw hw you cn even live w it.
i wanna knw why
i should even give a damn abt you missing me so terribly.

i'm starting to slp, a lil' easier nw.
nw that i'm over this
&& i've made up my mind to nvr fall in love again, w someone lyk you
someone so confused
i just wish i would have realized that a long time before i had.

SIGH*
In th earlier times. I should have listen t my nicole mei that what she've told me && what she have said t me .
Until this time, thn i realise, awoke.
Bt was all too lil' too late abits.
Im so stupid for being awaiting, ain't all i was a foolish belief?
&& thanks for huiyee babe being there for me . (: