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LOLS . :D i just found out this pic in my hp == Idk what i did t him also .
SMOKE.SMOKE.SMOKING

Good afternoon ! (; im back to post !
I.m.so.tired. Headache, Spinning =( Eversince fri , my hp was topping-up .
There is so much messaging . Totally ytd msg i sent 149 =.=
I cn tell that , since ytd morning all the way busying messaging fr none-stop .
All the way , my head was looking down at my hp .
Lyk no times for me to facing up . Ohs , that was crazy mans !
Msg ; Huiyee babe , zhengwei , shiming dar , andy , junyu , Cheryl mei , jieqiang notiboy , ricky daddy
&& melvin erzi . Bt , erzi didnt reply my msg ! ):
Ewww .. Im getting tried of msg alr . Lazy now now now. Hahaha.
Ytd didnt went t meet cheryl mei for drinks .
Cos' of her friends cancel off . D;
Then zhengwei he wanna meet me .
So , 7pm meet him , nicholas && one of his friend at my house void-deck && slack .
Aft that the unkown guy ahboy cames .
...Until was abt 9.30pm plus accompany them to nearby my blk45 for drinks .
.. DRINK DRINK DRUNK DRUNK DRUNK !
I also dk around on thy times what am i doing or say anything .
Was abt 12am plus , they accompany me back t my house .
Then zhengwei accompany me up t my house outside .
Vomit.vomit.vomit..
What comes over my mind ?
I was feeling so down .
How can i be a happier girl ?
While whn i was alone walking around somewhr nearby my house .
I walk my way to my secondary school .
I make my way to my previous to rewind back to the past .
While reaching at my last time secondary sch outside the door/gate .
Standing Staring Over . It something's came over my mind .
I was so missed . I was so missed my previous sec4 times , sec.sch time , everyone .
While was walking back to my house voiddeck alone,
I was wondering . Wonder Wondering if the times could turn back around agian .
&& i won't/wouldn't be here . How i wish i could turn back the time .
I will treasure the time && my studies well . && i wouldn't be endup that i am here .
I will g t the right place . Then i wont be walking t the wrong side , now .
I would rather chosse the right way which is study hard for my future bright .
&& i wouldn't endup here for everyone blame . && esp my parents .
i wouldn't let them down so worst right now , was alls , everythings which is too late my faults my mistake . Is my ownself destroy my future && my parents life . If the time could stop , i will listen t my parents whatever they said .
It was myself previous of me i dnt understand && dk hw t think .
Regret in my whole life nw . Im sorry everyone .
I have a thought , which is always came to my mind .
I rather die right now . Words death would always better way for me , am i right ?
I should come to die . So i wont troublesome and affect or drag everyone down .
Everything which is on me , which i done did do , which is failure && hopeless .
-apologise-