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Yesterday, went out w my xiaovan mei. But i'm not going out this few days. No mood. Hais! But, never mind luh. It ok. Cos' she did also have a xin si telling me. So, i have to. I will be her listener.(: I just can't leave thems like that. Cheers mei, alrights? Relationship..... Relationship is always it complicated. Many things was causes/happens many things in. So, i hate. Imma hate love. Love is hurts. Now i have a phobia in this. Hais! Somethings that is gonna happens to me. That is all. While, we was walking on thy half ways. Hers friends was calling "xiaovan"! Ohs. Stopping awhile. My mei friends suddenly wants my num. WTH/F?! No. My heart was telling me. Cos' i only love my bf only. He is lock in my mind. When/where ever. Where i was. Always in my mind. No matter outside, while i was looking at those guy. How good looking it is. I still don't feel good. Cos' they "hai shi bi bu guo". His heart. He is first guy that i met was really good to me. Only bf he is so wonderful to me. No one else is gotta to have eu. Hais! I also don't know why. Why?! Why he starting from monday was not going to leave me. He seems like so cool to me. What am i to you now? Are we/me still in r/s? I guess not. Am i rights? I was keeping on waiting for your msg. For thy each day. He still never contact me. Wondering. I didn't know. Thy feelings let me feels that his love to me are fate away luhs. Hais! What am i going to do? Love me? You re say:Love you. I will de. Who say de. I love you. From that day till now. I was alone. Thy pain in my heart. Nobody was going to knews. I was goin to mad. Always was locking myself in thy room. No one else is going to talking to me. Thy cries. Thy bad-dreams. All i have. My mind since thy day till now. I just can't stop my tears tripping aways. How?! Are we gotta seprate ways?! I knows i have hurt you so much. Sorry. I just wanna to tell you this. That day was a misunderstanding. You've misunderstand me. I just wanna tell you thy truth. When i have read your blog. Than get it. Do i have a chance? You was treating me as a stranger now. Sorry was no cure to you le. Maybe you have so over me. I know. May be it the end/game over? Cos' there is nothing could forever. Nothing can live forever toos. Forever is an lie.

You will not know the pain i had , the feeling i was feeling . Miserable is the only word is say it . I cannot deny that i love you ; can i say that i don't hate you ? When i am down && all alone , why did you have to come into my life ? Why did you have to make me so deeply in love w you ? You could say a million iloveyou but ask yourself . Is it true ? Nothing could descible the love we used to share && the fate we believed in ... && there is nothing such as forever love .

the love we used to share , the fate we used to believe in

PERHAPS , TIME MIGHT CURE THE HURT YOU GAVE

-i've never liked you
but i always loved you

And i wanna thanks darren piggy who was cheering me up. Thanks lots.

Darren-Hm, cheer up kitty! :} hahahs, dont think too much alright, maybe single like me is fun aight. :D Hahahs, it depends on who the guy and girl are (: just that we havent found one that can compliment us, our flaws and weakness. There's so many opposite gender, millions plus in the world, we'll meet the perfect one someday alright :} smileee.

I rly wanna thanks you piggy.(: Cheers! Get well soon.

Ricky daddy- thanks & cheers ! you are rocks ^^ ily Daddy!!

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