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Happy birthday to Marcus ! (;

nw, this was a photograph take w a camera w a film. I was attached to it. This pic is of the word missing from the dictionary, also this is for a postcard design which is t show someone that they are being missed && t come back soon {: I've even lost my way nw, i am too missing. SIGH ~ Guilty is what i cn say right nw . I felt something missing in my life , just lyk a missing puzzle . What's that ?! "WHAT I'VE LOST? Why does it hurt so bad?" Whn i came t realised so many things when i'm alone . Many things cames in my mind . I still miss my past . I miss those peepos in my past . Bt nw they're all gone . They've their own life && new friends . What abt me ?! Many things have change . Since whn this yrs' . I still rmb , last time i have uesd t have this words.: "Whn the time goes ; Once the time past , everythings change && our life changes toos ." What i knw the nw of me is no longer the past of me . All the broken dreams take everything . Bt they cn nvr have ytd . Bt what is my feeling nw is why does my heart feel so empty ?! && where's my happiness? &&What am i lacking for ? Whn im down or alone , they are the one whu always wake me up , cheer me up whnever im so drown/down && they nvr failed me whnever i have my problems/troubles . Thanks for being there for me whu ever you'r ! (; They're the best-friends that i've knews . && they're so important t me . They understands me , they knew i'm very bad tempered . So what i change my attitude nw ? What i have thought nw is all that i have regret what i have been for or for what i have done . I nvr been treasure things well that i gt . I nvr been treasure beside of my friends truly . && Always treating them as bad && giving them attitude . I knw i'v not been a good girl . So what ppls used t have this sentence.: " Rainbow appears once in a blue moon ; cherish it ! (;" As i due t my past sch life time , i have used t a one ('very') bestfriend ever before . Many of them took us lyk a sister . I knew her since in pri.1 . We always stick tgt for everywhr we go we did , everythings we used t be the same . .. Until our age turn 16yr' , we break our f/s . Cos' i have realise what she have done so much bad things at my back.: betrays , backstabber , liar/cheater , stalker , 2 headed snake , took me for granted and even climb over me . Somemore still , cheat guys feelings && money as my god-bro have been cheated by her as before too . So wtf/h ?! I realised that hw much stupid-damn-hell i am . Why does the way turn out lyk this ? I rly dk why she need t treat me so bitch/evil && end till lyk this ? Why must some peoples do things until lyk this ? This is too much . I rly dnt understand why just cnt live your way life out in peace ? I dnt even knw what a shit that you want . Ohs , is such a wasting in my life time spending w this bitch . ;x This is she didnt treasure this f/s well . On that accident happened , i was so upset , dissapointed && angry abt . Aft this happens onwards , i nvr trust anyone . This is my lesson t learned . So what nw i cn tell is , no matter hw gd/close it is or hw the best ever as you think he/her is . You still must pls nt t be trusted . If you rly wanted t trust a person so much . I cn say "you want t trust nt much that is enough , thats all i cn say" . Nt t put 100% trust . Dnt regret as i say . Bt nw , i learn t be independant . I cn live w/o my friends . I cn enjoy shopping alone . I cn do almost everything alone . && i will nt relying on someone . Bt there is one things that i cn't lose my family ! They are my important in my life parts anw . (:

"let bygones be bygones and dnt obsess over the past".
but whatever happens happens. i just dnt wanna get hurt again :\
Happy ever aft - Just like what fairytales say.

Amanda!:D
Oh , well . Early in the morning , whn i just woke up t wash-up . Just that shiming dar && amamda call my house . Say that , they were on cab otw t my house around t slack . So i quickly eat my breakfast && went down t accompany them . LOLS . :D They pon sch for today . ... Around 10am plus . They came up t my house && use my com . Abt 12pm , they have t went back t tiong =.='

I've realised something,
the more you get closer t a person,
one day it will go in the separate ways,
&& may nt the close as the time that you think,
it may became stranger in life!

&i lose myself
Eh, i'm emo-ish sometimes. I lose myself. I lose reality. &&I couldn’t be happier.