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Accompany t go @play sell tickets ((:
Imma is back ! (; Upload fews day ago photos . && Just a fews day ago i was sick . Today just nt yet recover . Hope i will be recover soon . ^ ~

I NEEDS SOMEONES TO TALKS TO !!! I NEEDS COUNSELLER !! I AM GOING TO MAD && CRAZY !!!!! SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME !!!

281008

I love my PIGEON♥ Baby powder ! ;DD It a beatiful smell nice & lovely * Ps' nt clearI'm so tired of being here [ MY IMMORTAL ] ! I felt that i'm useless . Sometimes i was thinking if i leave . This world will be getting better ./

Ytd sensen was saying "hi" t my at msn . Saw his nick { i got heart disease lar siol ! } WTH ?! I was getting shock of it . && asking him ; he just reply me one word "ya" . Hais ! Cheers sensen * I just wanna t knw what was happens actually . Bt you didn't reply me/did nt reply t me . Sigh ..... Why dn't you reply ? I guess your mood was gone , am i right ? So that you did nt reply me . Msg you also the same . ); Anythings just msg/tel me . Dnt' think too much , alrights ? I'm here . [ Let Me Know ] Tell me tell me on ! (; Do takecares alots && much !!

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271008

Happy Birthday To My Grandmother !

&& i'm so sorry abt ...

cn you imagine a old people which is your grandmother whose looking/finding you when you are disappear/gone ?

Sorry ytd rly . Hais ! And sorry for my family members , father & mother . Esp ; My Grandmother . I am rly nt a very good daughter && grand-daughter at all . I am unrespectful . I Apologize that . It such a damns that i am . Ytd is her celebration . That i .... . I am making thems dissapointed toos . Today is her real birthday . It was raining this afternoon . I actually nt going anywhere . && since it raining . Bt i still make my mind way t go amk t buy cake for my grandmother . So sorry ya ! Aft ricky daddy comes t find me . He accompany me . Thanks lots ! (; Aft decided t slack at there . Cos' i was waiting for her t come back frm playing majong . ..... Hmmm .. Aft 7.33pm gg back luhs . G t my grandmother house t give her the cake that i bought . I am rly feels so sorry ... bloody hell tiring ! (; Gg slp soon . Nights everybody . Sweetsweetdreams ^^

I am such a useless . I hate myself . I am nothing now at all . I have no parents . They just take me a transparents && throw me away asides act like i am nothing at all . Why ? Why you all have to treat me like that ? WHY ? Sometimes i was really was thinking to be alone forever . Nobody is going to care about me . My life seems like hard to me . My life was really meaningless now . I am dying && lie in down for the one day true . No one else . Nobody is gonna leave me . All my own bussiness . They swer that if i die . They won't see me once agains . They just took me i am death . They just can't understand me . If one day , i'm leaving ... I can't leave in peace . All i wants is w/in peace . My heart was really gone w pieces . Now was really that ; i lose myself it hard to bring my starting of me . I was losing me mind . She is crazy of Suicide . I'm sorry .

251008

HAPPY 1YRS' ANNIVERSARY TO OUR FRIENDSHIP
{Ahbenbaba , Ahkelbaba , Ahsongbaba && Ahxingbaba}

I am sorry . I have to say . This is all i gotta to say . I was really appreciate it ! Appreciate our best friendship that we have been together . I am very happy begin w Ya All . Ya All have always brighten my days to , chill " Hoping our shipping will not be end . I am really so thanks for the past . Thankful for the past have given me that best . I never forgets . I'll never forgets kel , ben , song && xing . Yeahs ! (; From that times till now . I am awaiting . Waiting for this day to be come . I am gonna happy for it . I never ever thought of any friends sides of me . Only Ya All that i thought of lovin' . Never knews i would thought of treating somethings good for Ya All . Never count for any of my friends likes this . Only Ya All . I am going to give it a surprise w . Yes . Finally . I was waiting . But , for these day . There was have a somethings thought in my mind . There was somethings in my mind . Ya All can don't turst me now . Cos' i am not a very good person && was not a trustful person . I have dissapointed to esp; ahkel && ahben . Break Promise . I have break the promise . Have break the promise that we've made . I know Ya All have hate me alots from nows on . Sorries . Really . I am so sorry about it . Hope Ya All can understand . Ya All should know what have happens to me during those day . I have been hurting much for the past . Now i was really hate guys/boys/mens . All on guys . Thats' it & all . && i have started to change my thinkings . Many things have coming out in my mind since that was happens to me . I feels lonely . At thy time i just wanna to be alone . I don't want to contact . Don't wants to contact guys/boys . I hate . Ya All should know . I hate it/thems . Half is i was lazy to contact everybody . Asap only for girls then i will be contact when they was contacting me . I am afraid of love or r/s . I have a fear for guys . A phobia come in . I don't likes . Hate it ! Get off of me ! And i don't know some guys was keeping on contact me/keep on msg me . WTH/F it ?! Stop pestering me lahs ! Stop fking trying to firlts around laas . Stop annoy continually laas . Damns irritatate me !! Irritatting ! Freak && piss off la . I keep on thinking . I don't know . Really . Something wrong . Something there is not rights . Something changing my mind . Why ?! I really don't know . I really don't know why i have this thought . Know what i feels ?! Know what i am thinking ?! No . Cos' you'll never ever understand . I'm different . No . It can't be true . I really change . I am gonna to be change turn back to the past & it was more worst . && i wanted to change . I wanna to be a new alive person agians . Times , i needs . All i need is times now to change everythings in my bad things/life turn to be a good/to be a better person gians . OK ! I want to against w it . I'm sure . Now everythings is really bored to me now . && i wanna quit everythings . I guess that my heart/feeling have told me to "Start Over Again" . Yea yea ... Thats right ! I must be have confidence to myself . I can do it ! Do my best ! I have decided . But anw Ya All still are ways in my heart PBT . Sorry nows on . I just wanna to leave/have the last words to Ahben && Ahkel 'Sorry' . I wish to tell && Hope Ya All can understand //

261008

Lyris : footsteps
About the time, when the sun set
my footsteps took me
open my eyes,
to a place I thought
Whether
I still hav
some harted towards you
I want to be free now
I believed
time would solve everthing
was that
in itself
a foolish belief?

Now, i want to just
go with the flow of things
it doesn't matter to you anymore
from the start
a person like you
never existed to me
the way I didn't to you.

remember
one day. You'll hurt
as much as i did
from someone other than myself,
you'll experience
the same pain
I'm sorry, this is all i can do
it's the way
it can be, really
for that day to come,
when I can
start over like you
for me, who
can't love you and
can't help but you
from the start
a person like you
never existed to me
the way I didn't to you
remember
one day, you'll hurt
as much as I did
from someone other than myself
you'll experience other than myself
you'll experience
the same pain
I'm sorry, this is all i can do
it's the only way
it can be, really
for that day to come
when I can
start over like you
for me, who
can't love you and
can't help but hate you

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My 2 pretty lovely girls ! (;What are genia doing behind siol ?! ;DD LOLS .Those LOVE && MISSES LOTS !♥'s genie * HuggiesToday , it is so happy going out w my Genia && Genie ! ;DD Yeahs ! (; It is damns happy mans ! Long times never met liaos lors . Fking miss alots ehs . :D Finally . Ytd msg & told thems . [ So tml comfirm chop stamp must be meet uhs . :D ] Haas . Cos' it been so hard t meet agians . Meeting thems town at orchard mrt station . Once , they coming . Peepos ! ;DD 2 dying hair in golden brown siol ! (; LOLS . Hug Hug Hug thems !!!!! Aft , g fareast for shop shop shopping !!! Muhahahas !! They are damn damn damns funny, cute & lovely lahs ! Aft , g t cityhall ((:

Beibei-Chill . Must Cheer up ok ? Sorry imma cn't acc you today . I wanna see a strong of you ! (; It nt worth . Damns ! Guys are so fking !! Don't think too much , alrights ? Stay happy * Must rly do tc alots uhs . MISSES Lords "

241008

Alone reflects the past memories && says byes *

my graduation ;


And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 18
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in August
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels


As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends always


So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels


Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

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Posting that days pic spending ...

sherman , ziyang didi && jinwei .

Sherman !!!!! ;DDDPAPA Don't shy laas . Luaghs *

Shiming dar =)

No jokes hors .

Got snap by Grace ! ;DD

I can say or just to pretend that i'm luaghs w every happiness round being w everyones . I can say that i am happy w . But , what to Ya All think ? Cos' Ya All never knew inside was how much that i have begin hurt & pain . I really don't know . At times , i may slow . Sometimes don't know . I do not think well . Yeahs ! (; Rights .
Many things that i do not knows . Now i know "Death in hell causes" , How to born in living is greatest luckily of us . I knews . I am half awake now . Still more . I have to move on . I can't stay to the rock stone forever . Sitting at there crying when i am fall . I have to stand . I have to try .\ Forgives && forgets ; everythings , around us , the past & the now . And restart , anew/renew && refresh . Stand up . I can do it ! Do all my best that i have !! No worrys everyones ((:


This Way Up ! (;
Goals :
It is important t set goals that you can achieve . Alternatively you may be naive in setting very high goals . You might nt apperciate either thy obstacles in thy way , or understand quite how many skills you must master t achieve a particular level of performance .

MY MENTAL && BEHAVIOURAL GOALS
How can i improve my mind ? In what areas i can t become smarter ? What bad habits can i change ? What new behaviours that i wants now ? All i should know . Somethings i won't say out here . See me in 30 nov . A new soul coming t changes .

The past of my secondary school life was begin in :D
Idealistic , loyal t thier values and t ppl whu are important t them . Want an external life that is congruent w thier values . Curious , quick t see possibilities , can be catalysts for implementing ideas . Seek t understand ppl && t help them fulfill thier potential . Adaptable , flexible && accepting unless a value is threatened .

Life is like a boat