31 July 2009

010809

Happy birthday to Afiq ! :D
&&
Happy birthday to sherman !! ;D


It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope i had the time of my life.


Ohs , my fav.idol of "TOHOSHINKI!" LOLS . :D This video is about 3yrs' plus ago , if am nt wrong . Quite lame as you all think , I Guess . Anw , is cute de OK ?!
Im so in love w them ! Has been 1 yrs' plus , i came back to them .
I miss them so much ); Esp for my beloved only one jejoong ; he's cool mans ! ;D
Enjoy , after watching . Please give me a comments , thanks . (: x33333

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30 July 2009

310709

Happy birthday to Ajib ! ;D

In my life , i came so many experience in eyes . I can see so much different things , as i been or went through so much . I realised , everythings in this world is realistic is a fact . For every each steps i take i walk , i fall && learned . So i'll see , i understand i knew .

Gangster ? Play shirts ? For those are just brainless type would play or join this kind of childish && kids things . Sometimes i dont get it , I dont understand why ! For some people to your ownself goods ? To make yourself to feel proud ? Does it make you feel proud or big name in it ? No ! Is a dumbness/stupid ! It only make your ownself looks so shameless/low in it , more worst then it . Ohs , It such a poor/pitiful or a fool for these kids . {: "MIND THIS SENTENCE , FOR ALL THOSE GANG-STER IS OUTDATED ! ;D" But Sara told me - depends actually some really big timer . Well , this sentence make some sense to me . Anyway , i hates to mix w those kind of bad company .

Secrets are no fun . Secrets hurt someone . Ofcourse everyone do does have a secrets by ownself . In a moment of weakness (a mistake) But I kept it a secret . Soon enough I found , Secrets have a way of getting out . Secrets cant be kept . I confess a crime against my life . My loneliness is punishment enough . Forgiveness is Define . Everyone keeps secrets sometimes .

Do we have a purpose ? Is a question one will often ask . Is there a higher power out there, some greater task ? The truth will hurt many , not only a few . People have a hard time dealing w that which is true . There is nothing greater that watches your back . Deal w it , stop crying && build your own stack . You are responsible for the life that you lead . It is not someone else’s fault when you dont get what you need . If one wants the stars , they must be grabbed by one’s own hand . Nothing in life is freely given there is no promised land .

So the question remains , why are we here ? For those w/o faith , the answer is painfully clear . We live only for today && if we are lucky tmr . To us there is no afterlife , but that brings us no sorrow . Self improvement is our main goal & it starts in the here & now . We refuse to be filled w illusions of grandeur && get fat off them like a cow . The best of us seek improvement in every area we can . W/o the proper balance of self there can be no complete human-being .

Wisdom is for the wise && that is one of the things we strive to be . Vision in what was once blind , reality is what we wish to see . The past can lend us wisdom if we choose to open our eyes . Sadly for the masses it is easier to stomach soothing lies . Self-improvement starts w vision & vision is the key to all . Vision gives us the gift of truth , but few can handle it && many fall . For us lucky few who can handle truth , the road is bright ahead . We strive for perfection , but get betterment instead .

Strength is another goal that we fight hard to seek . We know that in the end nothing will be given the weak . To be great in life one must be strong . The meek shall inherit nothing , their reign never long . Sadly power can taint & if that happens , destroy . Power is not for the weak of mind , but it can be a joy . Might may try it’s hardest but it can never honestly make right . Though it is important to note that history is written by the victor of a fight . Though it can be bad , strength is a tremendously important tool . On the path of self-improvement you will meet many a fool . Too many people cannot handle truth & they will try & eliminate the source . So if you are strong enough , they can never make you change course .

Self-improvement may be the main but there is another that is key . Procreation is the natural drive of life , for you && for me . In truth , there is only one way after death to live on . && that is through procreation , the creation of your spawn . Children are your life force && they make you feel wonderfully alive . They give focus to your chaos && motivation for your drive . W/o children a person is never whole . They lack an essential ingredient , that one special role . Nothing can fill the void except when a child is put in the space . Their life lends you power , there is magic in their face .

I have answered the question , though some may not like what I have said . I smile && wave them goodbye , for I know the truth in their stead . I cannot force vision on the masses , but I will forever strive to try . My gift of vision is for those who want to see through life’s lie . I once was blind but now I see . However , it wasnt god that did this for me . I walked the path of self-improvement w my own two feet . Due to this fact I can never be beat . I can deal w just about any problem that can come my way . When times get tough I dont get on my knees && pray . I deal w whatever comes at me while standing proud . I refuse to settle for mediocrity I will always stand out in a crowd .

Life is hard , that is a fact that people have to understand . && ofcourse there are times when you need a helping hand . No people is an island && I totally agree . My problem lies w people who only want to lean on me . When you never hold yourself up , you deny yourself improvement . If you let your muscles atrophy , then you can never have positive movement . A life w/o a child & w no betterment is a life wasted . That is a life that was smelt && looked at but never tasted . I have given you enough wisdom to ponder for the day . Question everything or forever frozen you’ll stay .

the full title is "The Truth to The Meaning of Life."
WARNING, THIS POEM CONTAINS ATTACKS AGAINST RELIGION. IF EU ARE A VERY RELIGIOUS PERSON I ADVISE EU TO NOT READ THIS PIECE.
it is not my goal to offend people. however, I have my opinion && I have just as much right t express it as anyone else. if you do not listen to the warning & you read the poem & become offended by it I will feel no guilt. not listening to the warning makes it your fault if you get mad. if you want to attack what I say in this post, do me a favor && note me instead of putting it in a comment. if you really think the post is bad I would love to hear why so as always, critiques are welcome!:D

this piece is about what I feel to be the true meaning of life. whoever decides to read it I hope you enjoy it && please put a comment about the post. I cannot know where I among my peers of poets unless they give me feed back. Thanks.(:

当你的命运是好或者还是坏
命运中注定是不可能改变的是


Hello People , it 0933 now .
4.30pm plus was on phone w qiwen notiboy . (:
Finally i can get a chance to post a lil';D
Can tell that i frm 8pm plus around switch on my com
till now can get to release .
Dk why today is so much people msn w me .
Was fking busying ! ): once online ,
so many people msn w me till now .
I cant even get to do my things/stuff !
All chatting w me at the same timing ,
making me so confused && blur .
Dont even know what i type or they type .
WTH/F lors . =(

Alright, shall stop a lil' complaining post now.
Nights ! ;D

Tmr plan - meet cheryl mei , weicong , perry && jiahua
Sun plan - meet huiyee babe
Mon plan - Maybe working

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29 July 2009

300709

the hardest goodbye
are you hiding
like the way I do?


Ihaveacrushonyou
If I walk the seas.
would I be able to reach you.
I will give you all of my heart
when I meet you.
While walking along this path,
if you happen to see me.
Please accept my hello.

Goodafternoon People ! (;
Shag ! Now adays , i dont understand it .
I dont understand why was it was ?
I dont understand why keep quarrel w my mum ?!
Damn it ! Sometimes , i felt that my life is so fragile so weak .
'Life in frames' Well, you can figure it out by yourself what I mean w it ! (;

Alan , jiayou for today ! ;D
Aloy-songsu , no lazy (; update your blog !! Muhahahas ! :D

Alright, shall stop here for posting!
takecares peeps(!)

So random , i just happen to found this pic in my com
:(overdue-pic, know it gone_is over. is the past joys we had tgt, goodbyes:)


Im so drown so down
Im so tired tired over it now
It killing me myself
I tried to smile just a lil'
Tried to make myself happy
I really tried not to cry
For the first time
But i just had to stop myself
Couldn’t see the happiness in me
Why?! Why have this happened to me?!
Why am i suffer like this?
I can’t take that much can't take it anymore
I have enough what I’ve been through
So why am i heart ache?
I really tried to smile
Sometimes . Once i flashback my soul . I felt so lost && missed . I miss my past . I miss my past life . But , i've lost everything now . If it wouldnt me . Everythings wont be now or today . It was fault . I bring the burdens to my parents . Im sorry . I really dk how am i going face to tell . I only can express everything at here . Im so sorry . I apologise..
Im sitting here alone . Idk what or how am i going to do . I dont even know how to handle my life , everythings . Confession...
I think i need sometimes by my own by myself.....

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300709

MAMA! PLEASE!! PLEASE STOP NAGGING AT ME! I HAVE ENOUGH!

Sometimes , In every-people life is fortune .
Good things & words are kept . Bad things & words are spread as whole world to know . (why?)
a long long walking.
lights & noises.
what a tired day.

I'm so tired, I haven't slept a wink
I'm so tired, my mind is on the blink
I wonder should I get up && fix myself a drink?

It's summer but it's crazy weather everyday...
Sometime is really f!king weather.
Instead of wearing tank tops, I feel lyks wearing long sleeves..
=.= What's up?! Global warming? Hahaha.
Right now, as obvious. Im at the point of
experimentation w my stuff. Somemore quite busy.
New series coming sooooon (hopefully coming by next week)
Majors have been nothing but 'HELL!'

weeman(cousin)


Hello People , has been alone for the whole day . Can say that . Cos' sometimes i was thinking to be alone for independents ..... 2pm plus today . Went to my grandma house w my bro . Until it was time about to 4pm . Went bugis area round to seek for a job . Yet , there isnt any job vacancy . Not a moment ?! Wtf ! ): so , was around 6pm . Heading to cityhall , continue to seek again . While time was nearly to 7pm . Weichiang bro came to accompany me . ............ Finally ! We get in a interview ! ;D (happy) Ohs , tmr alan is going to have his driving test ! Hopefully he can pass !! Haas . Now am texting msg to him .

Msg for Alan-Wish you good luck for your tmr test ! (; rmb , got to have confidence in yourself uhs . {: all the best for all ! ;D may god bless you !

Alright, shall stop here luh.
Night!

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28 July 2009

290709

Happy birthday to samuel didi ! (;
Do you know im hiding?
You could see me right through now im smileing,
but you wouldnt know im nt even.....

It midnight now...
Sometimes , how i wish i could die in my sleep . && nvr ever would awake . So that i can rest in peace . Could this be happen ? I wonder if one day coming ? Maybe there is a illusion of sleeping pills ? Hmmm .. But i just want a small request , can i ?

Alright, shall stop here luh.
I also dosent know what am i typing now.
Sigh ~ Night!

F the world ! :D
Believe my lies. See not my ways. Or how i spend my tourture filled days.
Im tired i state, but you know not. I feel like im incredibly bought.
Im fake && plastic w nothing of mine. I cant do anything by myself, but im just a blank line.
I fail && fall in too the darkest depression. I get to the point where i causes self-opression.
Eventually i will sleep, in blissful slumber & time will only be a number.

I often use the excuse that im tired or my brain hurts for situations that i, well, dont know how to handle. I always want to sleep thru the pain or take some advil for a pretend headache so people will leave me alone && right now... im in a hard situation..

Morning People . Ytd evening time , am actually meeting my xiaovan loves' mei .
Yet cancel off , nvr meet le . Sigh ~ i wondering what has happening .
What has happened in my life , right now ? My life is so complicated !
I could realised everythings , if i rewind or to think back the times & the days .
Is being too late now && ever . Everything's changed .
I dont wanna to bring everyone burdens .
I wanna apologise for those whom i owe them alots . Im really sorry .
I know im a bad girl bad person . Im a rotten ! Hais ! How i wish , How i missed .....
Im totally stucking . Im totally confused . Im totally depressed . I regret . I confess .
Dosent mean all now i can release those wrong && mistake on me ?
Dosent mean god can release all painless && forgiveness on me ?
What i have done is over , is all given punishment on me now .
All the broken dreams take everything . But they can nvr have ytd .
2 evil people has gone in my life . What they get on me & walk away ,
im sure one day they will get a double stabber .
"Rainbow appears once in a blue moon ; cherish it ! (;"
moody/no mood
Sigh ~ Now adays was so hardly been through my days .
Idk why am i getting easily frustrated && keep on throwing
my hot/bad-tempered . Almost quarrel w mom everyday .
Im sorry to xinli , weixuan goodfriend && arron if i giving
you acttitude . Hope to seek for your understanding .

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27 July 2009

280709

♥ Hellos to My Loves' ! (; Happy Birthday ! ;D ♥♥♥♥♥♥The two lovely twins !!♥♥♥♥♥
(thanks for being there for me while all the moment whn i need eu)
Happy birthday my friends/sisters***Genie & Genia
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've had
It's such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
&& may all both of your dreams come true

♡♡♡

&& Happy birthday to aaron ! (;

to all of my dearest friends (Adrain , Ahda bro , Alan , Alexiis mei , Andy , Boyer , Cheryl baobei mei , Deric , Esther , Genie , Genia , Guolong laopa , Huiling deardear/laogong , Huiyee babe , Joey best buddy , Liyi beebee , Marcus , Melvin erzi , Nicole beloved mei , Peiyun , Perry , Potato , Ricky daddy , Sara , Serene sweetloves' , Shelton didi , Shijie bro , Shiyin mei , Stanley-skinny , Tiffany qingren , Weichiang bro , Weicong , Weixuan goodfriend , Xiaohao notiboy , Xiaovan loves' mei , Xiaoen' childhood playmate , Xnas , Yangboon notiboy , Zeke misses') - thanks so much for all your warm , heartfelt & comforting words . && for simply being here for me . I'm deeply touched (tears) && am slowly smiling again . All your kindness has reminded me again how much i have to be thankful & grateful for . && has meant to me more than you'ld know . Lovesyou all && the ** biggest & tightest hugs* to all of you , my dearest friends . xoxoxoxoxo... ^^

Goodmorning People ! (; Dozing ..... Super-tired ! D;
Was so bored , right now . Haahs , was msn w starboy . {:
Ohs , was so poor/pity for him . Hmmm ..
Hopefully , they will give you a short probation ending date earlier . (:
Last night , was so buysing msn w people . ...
After that , was on phone w shiwen . Follow by arron .
..... Idk why am i now adays keep automactically awake damn early .
I wanna get back to sleep for sometimes . But it hard .
I dont get it , really . Even i wanna search or to find out the reason why .
Such a weird i am , right ? Hahaha.
&& am now adays are getting more easily frustrated .
I just couldnt/dk why i am ! I felt that
my depressed are getting more && more worsen .
Im so stressing , stressing about money-working && some others
thing of myself . Soon i guess , i will be in imh . LOLS . :D
Keep on quarrel w my mom . She cant stand me whn i getting
angry/frustrated . Well , is aint all my fault ok ?
I know that i have a bad or a hot tempered . Sorry .
Sometimes , she is really unreasonable ok ?
Keep on nagging non-stop , i cant stand her !
Even i try to control my tempered ,
trying to ignore her . && she keep on nagging while
nobody ignore her also . Somehow , do you know it damn irritating ?
She still say wanna send me to Singapore-Girls-Home ? Wth/f ?!
What i done ? I just having a bad tempered then endup needs to
send me to s-g-h ? Need to be so serious ?
Ohs , I think this is so crazy . Ok well , i shall stop mention all
about this . (unhappy)

Anw , lastly i got to thankto sara && joseph .....

Once conform , once do what other people do .
Cos' they do it && a lethargy steals over all
the finer nerves & faculities of the soul .

Peepos ! (Thy day)250709 picture!:D

on the twins birthday chalet . {: (purposely faces-maker) muhahahas ^^
Oh, that day of the pic i look so freaking hell man!):
*the ugly faces/pic in meD;

Alright, shall stop here for my preparation.
takecares peeps(!)

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26 July 2009

270709

=(
im B-R-O-K-E ! I need a job badly ! D:
Hellos ?! Anyone have job intro ?

Could you see the tears ?
If only you see the tears im crying on my pillow.....

I sit on my bed && I weep
I'm tired && I just can't sleep
too much in my head
thoughts that I can not shed
not even with paper & ink

...so tired..

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25 July 2009

260709

Happy birthday to my loves' , advance ! ;D

Goodmorning people, the time now is 233am.
Hahaha. Soon i will be off to sleep, after this.
Damn tired/tiring!);

&&Ohno, just now i found it my wound nt even 3!
2moreD;

Actually , im starting to on my com frm around 1am .
Until now , i then started to post .
Cos' im all the way msn w around 10people =.="
It keep me waiting till now . Bth*
I cant even get to do my stuff .
Hmmm .. Just now while i was otw to genia && genie chalet .
At aljunied mrt station met till edmund .
LOLS . :D as first , i thought who was it siol ?!
Why does the person keep on staring or follow me ?
Haahs , i couldnt regonise it's him after he came to me ((:
Was so concidence . So we chitchat till stop at bedok station .
He drop off . ..... Reaching pasirris-dt-east chalet to have fun tgt .
I rly hope both of you will lyk it the small lil' hands of art works
which is made . ... 10.30pm around , cutting cake .
After having the cakes , homesweethome ! (;
Ohs , Too bad that chunhao notiboy didnt come .

Alright, shall stop her for posting.{:
More pic will be upload by another day !
Nights ! Sweetdreams, w loves';D

Another morning people !
Bloody hell tiring ! (;
After finally get t turn off my com last night .
While i get up the chair , my whole body was
full of painless . Damn pain && tired of my whole body . D:
Maybe was i fall in thy morning causes started to pain . Hais !
Walking also pain toos . I feel so uncomfortable ! ):
Somemore having my gastric toos . Tired !
I feel so handicapped . D; Sigh ~
Tmr gonna start working le . Shag !

Tired. So Very Very Tired.
That is how I feel,
So Very Very Tired.

Me. I don't want to be me.
Can I be you?
I don't want to be me.

Why. Why is my life this way?
I go on day by day.
Why is my life this way?

Love. A thing that seems to be lacking.
I search yet I cannot find.
A thing that seems to be lacking.

Life. Something that seems to go on.
One day at a time.
Something that seems to go on.

Death. Do I wish for this?
I'm unsure if I want that.
Do I wish for this?

Friends. Some people tell me I have them.
Some people tell me they are them.
Some people tell me I have them.

Where. A place deep inside of me.
Thats where I hide all my feelings.
A place deep inside of me.

Tired. I'm tired of being me.
So can't I be you? Or somebody?
I'm tired of being me, of myself.


A peice just highlighting how I feel right now , so very tired w everything .....

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24 July 2009

250709

Happy birthday to Ahkelbaba ! (; (im sorry.....)
Do eu know it hurts, it bleeding?
Sometimes, i rly dk what should i do. I cant found myself to be happy.
Confession. I know who is right there for me whn im alone, whn i need them............

Once i realised , everything was to late ..

Goodmorning people ! (;
In the early morning 5.03am awake for jogging .
Around 6am went down of my house area same place to start my jog . ...
Was damn unlucky that im falling down );
Long time didnt fall down le . (I hate to fall down !)
.. Pain* Ewww .. Having 3-wounds , one is around part of my ankle ,
another which is my hand && lastly was my leg . D:
Sigh ~ I want to lose fats ! .....Came back , quarrel w mom .
She is unreasonable ! Dk wth/f she was mans !
Keep on nagging non-stop , i cant stand her !
Even i try to control my tempered ,
trying to ignore her . && she keep on nagging while
nobody ignore her also . I think that she's depressed !
Somehow it makes me damn irritating , feels lyk getting/sending her to imh !
Well , i shall stop to mention about ! (mad)

Alright, shall stop right here le.
takecares peeps(!)

FULL-FCUK-OFF !! FUCK THE WEATHER && EVERYTHINGS LAHS ! (frustrated!)

I'm tired of saying "I'm sorry" !
I'm tired of hearing "you owe me" !
I'm tired of misunderstandings leading to him being mad at me for stupid shit !
I'm tired of feeling used !
I'm tired of bringing it on myself !
I'm tired of causing so much pain !
I'm tired of not trying in things that ought to matter !
&& I'm sick of trying to heal people that don't want to get well !
I'm sick of trying to fix people !
That I secretly know I can't .
I'm tired of living my life day to day & not getting anywhere !
I'm sick of the cycles my life follows !
I'm tired of living within my restraints !
&& I'm sick of being too lazy to break free of them !
I'm sick of being apathetic !
I'm sick of not && I'm sick of caring !
I don't want to be in this life !
I want to be someone else !
I'm tired of self-destructing !
I want to live .


I'm tired of it . Everything . Life . Not suicidal kind of tired . Just sick of things i could change but i don't . I'm so fucking lazy it sickens me .

I care . Of-course i Cares' . && i won't stop caring . It just seems like i don't seem to do any good when i do care. (Sigh~)

They expect too much .
So do i .

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23 July 2009

240709

F-CUK THE WEATHER , FCUK EVERYTHINGS !
I WANT TO SLIM-DOWN !! D;

I'm tired .
Tired of feeling lost , afraid , misunderstood .
Tired of wondering if I'm letting someone down by the choices I've made .
I'm tired .
Tired of getting my feelings hurt , my ego bruised , my heart broken .
Tired of showing these varmin called emotions .
I'm tired .
Tired of being me , of being weak .
Tired of trying to be this person I cannot see .
I'm tired .
Tired of all the pain , all the struggle I've put upon myself .
Tired of not being the person I was .
I'm tired .
Tired of hiding , hoping && healing .
Tired of listening , learning... letting .
I'm tired ... I'm tired .

LOLS . :D today seems lyk e' whole day messaging w my good-friend ! :D
Thanks Weixuan(Goodfriend) . {:

Peeps , opps ! Wth/f are we doing man ? Hahaha.
1st pic-LOLS . :D my retarded face ! Arghs !! MUHAHAHAS !! ;D
2nd pic-Ahhai/gong bro ! ;D


Haahs , nerd ((: Look Peepos ! Im fat );

Hello People , im back ! (;
7pm , just now went area of my house for jogging .
Tired . It been a long times that i didnt jog le .
Eversince , graduate frm secondary school .
Ok , well . After finish my jogging , was about 8pm .
Went to sk to rest && smoke .
Thirsty* Arghs ! Sk fridge dont have any bottle
of water , finish . D:
Alright , is ok . {: so slack at there w my sk friends .
Haas . Quite a long time , i didnt went down .
Cos' am lazy =.=" bored , deric isnt there .
If it he is there , he will get disturb by me ! :D
Cos' he just get in army today . Sad for him .
LISTEN , I WANNA SLIM DOWN "WO YAO JIAN FEI!"
IM SO FAT !!!!! Haahs , they cant tahan me =="
The xiaoderic say me mad && all of them toos . Lols .
.....Chitchatting , until was about 10pm .
Homesweethome !
("Before the love just turns to hate")

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22 July 2009

230709

Happy birthday to peiqi honey ! :D

(OLD PIC-07)
I am tired .
Tired of thinking .
Tired of talking .
Tired of people around me .
Tired of living .
maybe running , Daily race ?
I'd know , running away is not gonna slove a problems .













Hello People , im back ! (;
Just now boyer && one of his friend comes
to my house area nearby to find me . :D
Cos' it been such a long time didnt met ((:
& he is going out-boarding by next week
monday . He told me was about what ns issue
things . Anw , im working by next week monday toos .
&& im gonna missed . =(

Alright, shall stop here le.
Night!

Please let me go , i feel lyk im dead but breathing .
I know because my heart is beating .
Im sorry that i couldn't stay to fill your empty space
Ps.
-undefined

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21 July 2009

220709

(080208,
old pic)

Fading
Sorry

Staring at my reflection , I'm becoming numb . I barely recognize this thing that I've become . Buried beneath the surface , pounding in my brain . A desperate need for something I cannot escape . What is wrong here ? I don't belong here . Save me from myself... All alone , in the dark , feel the beating of my heart .
I'm fading inside , lately ; I cannot seem to find myself again
I'm fading inside , lately ; I cannot find myself... myself.


Goodmorning people ! (;
Haahs , now was on msn w my lovely shelton didi ((:
Damn bored , kinda shag );
Hmmm .. Ltr i might be going back macpherson ite to meet my ite mates . :D
Cos' some of them wanna meet me .
So i might be visiting mrtan toos . (:

Thanks to ricky daddy , huiyee babe , genia , zeke misses , tiffany qingren , cheryl baobei mei , perry && ahda bro concern .

Shiwen , thanks for your console ! ;D

Hellos People , its me again . Hahaha.
Just now 12.45pm around , went back to
macpherson ite for visiting
my mates/friends && teachers .
Until 3pm plus , homesweethome . {:
&& I quite in love w today weather x333
W loves';D

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20 July 2009

210709

Happy birthday to puxiu ! (;

just how I feel lately about myself, my life && everything...

Goodmorning , people !
Full-Fcuk , damn it ! Such a hot weather ! (unhappy)
I dont understand why now adays is getting hotter && hotter .
Keep sweating . I hate it mans !
Is making me feel uncomfortable . D:
&& it seems lyk now adays , im getting more worsen .
Im growing much more fatter && fatter again .
Arghs !! I dont want !!! Sadded ** hais ! );
Keep stressing . =(
I want to Slim Down & I want to Lose Fats !!!!!!!!!!!!
D=

Back to my world .
Was alone just now . Walking around , which i can see so much different kind of joys && love around . But , sometimes you could just see perfectly out-looks or impression . While you didnt notice about , how does people cuts deep inside their soul . Joys/happiness may shown on their face expression . But , how'd you know what is thier head/mind or heart was it was ? Could you find it ? Could you search for it ? Is hard to , isnt it ? You'll nvr understand ; Somehow , You'll nvr found 'that emptiness is meant fot the spirit' . Hahaha. This sentence is what zeke misses told me about . Quite make sence for me . (:

What i felt , right now .
Alone . My life is apart .
Is falling , again && again .
Idk why was it was . I happen
to think that so . Idk why , truthfully .
I really want to be happy .
This is all i ever wanted .
I've made a promises to one of my
good friend to be happy , stay happy &
to live my life w happiness .
&& stop to think much or to let my
negative thoughts comes .
Yet , i felt that i cant/unable do it .
I just cant put down . I'd still feel the same .
I feel so sorry for her .

Im sorry huiling deardear.....
but , i will tried my best to do it .
I'll be happy...


Picture perfect fading smiles are all that's left in sight .
Am I supposed to be happy ?
With all I ever wanted , it comes with a price .
Sometimes Somehow , i felt apart of me .
Somethings missing another part of my life ?

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19 July 2009

200709

i dont get it -
FOR ALL THOSE GANG-STER IS OUTDATED OK ?! ;D
wondering , does it make yourself feels proud ?
wonder what is their mind going through ?
wonder what is their mind thinking ?
Wakeup please , what age , what yrs' & what world now ? Think about it ! It only make everyone looks down/low on yourself && to be more worst then it . You are not kids anymore . (:

G.morning readers ! (;
Early in the morning should awake
&& washup for schoolling bahs ?
LOLS . :D hmmm .. Gonna went for a interview
ltr on . Hopefully , there is a big good news bring it on me .
I feel that im more fat again & again !! D:
I want to lose fats && Slim down ); **

Now adays , i feel so handicapped these days .
Every single sms that comes in ,
im so lazy && feel so tired to reply .
Hahaha. Hope to seek for you all understanding . {:
For friendster && facebook now is similar toos .
Once i login . Wah , shag ! So much friends request !
Crazy && mad =.=" Arghs !!! Plus comments too .
Making me of the feeling is much more lazy to approve
&& replying so much laas . Laughs* ps.

Alright, nth to post about.
Shall stop here le .
takecares peepos(!)


Questions cloud my head w why
Tears on my pillow as I cry
Makes no sense for us too say goodbye
Impossible to hide this pain inside
Thinking about the times we shared
Makes me wonder if you even cared


Back w my 'zhilian' pic ! :D
Went to International plaza @ tanjong pagar .
Hopefully i can get a good news soon . {:

Erzi , im so sorry about it );

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