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Peepos 2009 ! (; && goodbyes to 2008 !

Ytd went serangoon tzewei house t find grace , tzewei && peiyi . Countdown for 2009 . :D Nice for that . ... btw , sorry for lettin' Ya All being much troubles for me . Thanks for tzewei father send me t amk . Thanks for all anw . (: .. Aft reaching ricky house around there . 3am we meet . ..... His parents sibeh funny == LOLS . ............ Aww ... Sibeh tried ! Gonna g t slp luhs .
(Those 15msg ^^ Thanks for all the msg that i have been received by Ya All.)Stay happy ya ! No doubt ! ;DD Happy new yrs' ! Imma here to wish everyone stay in heathy life joy && all the best for this new yr!!
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"And if i make it through today , will tml be the same ? Am i just running in place ? && if i stumble & i fall , should i get up && carry on or will it all just be the same ?" So long has my life been stuck , on the repeat switch , over && over again . The days just kept coming , all the same feelings , just different thoughts & different words coming out of my mouth . It's lyk when you've fallen so far && hard , there's a rope & all you have t do is pull it && things start t get better . Bt you have t be ready t pull the rope & let it all g , t pull yourself up && move on . Bt tml isn't going t be , the same as today anymore , it's time t walk away , time t move on , you can't stay in this perpetual sadness forever ! There's nth called forever !! Why is it that you only start t pull yourself out , when you've hit the bottom & are going nowhr ? Why is that ppl don't pull out sooner , before it gets worse ? Maybe it's because things have t get worse , before they cn get better & they knw that they can't keep going on lyk this . I've finally turned the switch off , pulled the rope , ready t push that door in my mind && let the sun shine in . I'm ready nw . Bt i'm still afraid , because i'll be letting g a part of me , that's been there for so long , always . Bt it's for the best in the end , i can't keep going nowhr . This chapter in my life , is coming t a close . I knw that i'm still going t be , sad sometimes && life isn't going t get any easier , just harder . Bt it will be different . I'm pulling myself tgt . "Picked all my weeds && kept the flowers . Bt i knw that it's nvr rly over ."

I sit alone in the darkness. Waiting. Waiting for him to come back to me. Can he hear my cries? Can he feel my tears? Can he sense my breaking heart?! Hw cn this be that he can't see me? Is it because i'm sitting alone in the darkness? I, just walk past everyone as if i were invisible.Can he see me nw? Can he see the pain he caused me? I think i should move on, bt something tells me to wait.

It's my heart. I'll give him one last chance. He needs to prove his love to me.As i return to sit alone in the darkness. Waiting.....

HOPE THIS YRS', THINGS WILL BE GETTING BETTER ON! HAPPY @2009!!

time flies.
looking back over the entire 2008,
its been rly a different yr for myself.
i rly miss those secondary sch days.
ever since i gt to ite,
i think i've changed.
lol.(anw, it since that i have quit ite.));
in the mjr, most of the times, we were enjoying
we laughed & played at every at every single thing.
everyone was bond tgt.
even though we'r in different classes.
== Sigh!~
days are normal, boring,
ewwwwww.
next yr will be a better, i hope!
& i'm going t be 18 next yr,
starting from today! Hahaha;D