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confusion*
-080709, next wed i got to went db to visit him.

I has been working for 1week1days. So tiring!
&& now adays was on phone w melvin erzi.
Cheerups, maybe it wasn't your times yet to meet your mrs right.
I know that how you feel. Move on? Goodluck w all e' best, my erzi.{:

FCUKING FRIENDSTER !
FCUKING FACEBOOK !
FCUKING MSN !
FCUKING BLOG !
Fuck it ! Damn it ! Fuck everythings !!!!!
I don't know everywords && everythings came in my mind is all damn fuck !!

Guys is always damn Fuck ! I hate guys/boys ! (Hongster/filrt no.1 !!!)
Stop taking my num w/o my permission && msg or to call me !
They used to fuck everythings they ever wanted !
They fault us for w/o any reason , when our ladies were so innocent.
They don't even know how to appreciate , cherish && teasure it !

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Skinny ! (; last night , you make me laugh while your web-camming . Thanks for cheering me up . (: thanks for your octoto && you be e' papa octoto . :D by the way , you looks cute in it .

to my dearest ones && friends ,
maybe was my last time/last day of blogging .
Sorry...
takecares everyone . (:

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2days of working && tml was my 3rd day .
hopefully , everythings went smoothly .
so tired && pain of my leg . D:

why does im so drown && so down ?
i can't help myself . i can't even handle my life .
im so scared so fear . im stucking inside the dark .
im so afaird . someone focing me that i don't want to .
i gave away that i hate & is also the special ones .
im almost losing myself , lyk im missing now .
im so foolish in me . im so regret .
i dosen't know bad things could have happened .
idk why . idk why im so lose , right now .
i don't want to be the hell lyk this .
i could rather than giving/left the precious one to you .
but , now seems to be too late too over .
i rly hate myself for giving/sacrifice my ownself away .
i am so phobia...

no one else can even understand me now && ever .
this fear && pain , not even one can understand how i feel .
why ? there is nobody else can save me . no ! there isn't one .

zw, im sorry for myself && to you.
im sacrifice/giving away something .
i rly dk how to face or to tell you that, i've lost somethings else.
i think im nt the right one for you now && always.
im nt suit to be the one for eu. im sorry. im so sorry.

i'd lost myself.............

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G.Morning everyone ! (; wish me good luck ltr on . (:
Hopefully , everything went smoothly . {:

thanks eddie bro for your job intro.

as i walk alone in the cold rain,
my mind drifted away to the past.
to what we used to be
to the secrets we used to share.
how i wish you were here with me,
sharing the umbrella
in this lonely yet cold night.
whispering sweet nothings in my ear
i miss you so much.

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G.Afternoon people ! (; kinda bored ~
Hopefully cn get a job a news soon . (:
Hopefully, everythings went smoothly..
Now adays was damn lazy to use friendster
&& facebook instead . Ps. All will be approve or
reply in lately . Sorry anw . Hmmm ..
I should completly my Question of a lil' short post .

1. My Fav.Story from books/comics ?
As long as somethings which is included abt ghost story .

2. My Fav.Subject and teacher ?
Please don't ever ask agian . (nt schoolling anymore)

3. Singapore 2105 ?
LOLS . :D idk weather this earth cn keep us to alive/survive or stay how long was it . Is too far to know .

4. My brother/sisters ? Name ? Age ? What he/she doing now ? Do you like your bro/sis ? Why ? If you like why ? If don't like why not ? What activities do you all do together ?
=.=" too much asked && question , anw . Ok , well . I have a brother , name which is called weisheng . 12yr' old this yrs' . Ehs . Average , sometimes just felt that he is damn irritating or making me angry . So we will be quarrel for often . I only wish that he is mature enough , so i will love/likes him or to dotes him alots . Alrights , nth much abt it ! (;

5. The national day ?
Haven reach yet .

6. My Fav.Cartoon show ? Do you have the Japanese words ?
I seldom watch tv . I dont watch cartoons . Childish , see which parts or cartoon show it is . Yes ! :D

Alright, i shall stop here all the silly question!

Im so tired , tired because of you .
Im in confusion , dosen't know what should i do
to clear up my mind or heart w all the true/false .
I still dk that am i love you ? Likes you ? Miss you ?
Why am i so much by missing you ?


Hey peepos , im back ! (; 6pm just went to my grandmother house
to visit my godmother && eat dinner . It been so long that i didnt
went to visit & also see her alr . So , went to see/visit her . She seems to be
growing more older && older . Grey hair is almost over her head .
She even more && more weak toos . && i miss her so much ! );
last time , whn i was young children . She takecares of me && dotes me alots . D:
ILY ; MINE GODMOTHER ! :D

thanks to cheekin bro for tried helping me to look for a job . {:
thanks to adrian toos . && i am sorry that i didnt listen for your advise . Anw , i still needs to thankyou fr the Cares' . (:
lastly , i wanna thanks to eddie bro for trying to help me anw;D

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Wish me good luck !

Quickpost-last mins cancel off the part-time job, so 1pm meet nicole mei tgt went changi hospital for job asking.
-bus down to suntec, aft walking to bugis searching for job.
-went down dbg.:D

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累

I think i musta gave too much
Cos' i felt that the rd was getting rough
Suddenly i felt lonely out here
I look beside me to find you'r nt there

只怪我(lyris)
这黑色 的大衣
充满着你的痕迹
我依然记得
你穿着它将我抱紧

它依然挂在我衣橱里
或许你已经忘记
你的温度我还 记在心里

你抽过的烟蒂
还留在烟灰缸里
你仿佛在哪里
我的眼泪也开始滴

如果放弃须要勇气
是不是我不够毅力
还是怀疑就已失去

怪只怪 我看错了你
怪只怪 我不敢放弃
怪只怪 一个人在黑夜里
须要你的拥抱才可以

怪只怪 我相信了你
怪只怪 我没有犹豫
看不到这是你设下的陷阱

当我的美梦清醒 现实那么冷清
我没有别的途径 总要自己看清
有点苦 它才叫做爱情
现在我还不能放弃 可能我不够勇气
如果遗忘比面对容易 我怎么不能忘记
破碎的心里埋着 重重的回忆
我要带着微笑 去面

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G.Morning people ! (; by 6am plus , in the early morning wakeup .
Cant even get to sleep well enough . D: have my gastric agian && agian .
By this month started to have my gastric , I Guess .
What a big "SIGH" for me ! ); am tried been through my life .....
2am last night , huiyee babe msg me && melvin erzi call me .
Whn i was sleeping on thy times =.=" so concidence that they
both contact me as the same times around && day night .
While i was awake , i was wondering isit they both discuss
afterwards then contact me through ? Hahaha. Ltr imma have to
meet my cheryl baobei mei ! :D haas . It been quite a long times
that we didnt meet le . Finally cn get to see her ltr on by 2pm
at douby.G . (:

Aerosmith - I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing

Ohmy, this song is so emo-lish && touchable!)';
Damn nice ! && once listen , you will wanna repeat agian && agian .
Im in love w this love , fking much !

Here are the lyris-
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

(Bridge)

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

(Chorus)
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

(Chorus)
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing

Alright, shall stop right here le.
Back to post tonight ^^ ENJOY =)



Hey peeps , im back ! (; meet the mine baobei cheryl mei , weicong , perry
&& one of their friend ah-xiong at douby.G station . Aft we went plaza.S
&& accompany the 2 lovers' of the couples my mei && weicong , to buy
their couples ring . Cos' today was their 1mth anniversary ! ;DD
So sweet of they both . (: aft buying , accompany them went to buy
some kind liquid of beer , i think . Afterwards , tgt mrt down to yishun-np
to eat kfc . ..... Buying coke-zero ... Bus to perry house && drink . ..
Drink , chit-chatting && smoke . Aft all today , thanks for xiong counselling
me . && i would lyk to thanks to my baobei mei toos . {:

Alrights, i shall stop here le. Im so tired.
I need to go rest, really. =(
Nights! Sweetdreams, w loves';D

while i was on my way back home,
emoing. i keep on thinking over & over agian.
&&now i know was that,
i nvr ever fell in love w you as before & is also right now.
is just lyk what others told me.
maybe, i was just missing you all because of those jokes,
treat me good && is also a very good friend?
now i could know every mistake & misunderstanding
that i took. i was too silly too rush abt it.
am sorry...not because ily..is should be imy.
Perhaps all is just a dream.....

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Happy birthday to my Ahbenbaba ! (; bibi, w loves';D
somethings let me missed
somethings let me feel so lost
somethings let me missed back our past.....
idk what happens to me in the previous time . it cames everything fade away && go separately . just felt a lil' of regret of what i have done && what i have made a decision . suddenly , i do missed how our bond family life is so closed as nobody cn break us as apart . bt , end yet . it seems lyk i given-up ...
we used to called each others baba , rmb ?

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Snap by nicole mei . {:


Gt a snap by her friend ...

&& Yet , i have another new nose stuck ! :D thanks for nicole mei bought one for me . (: awww .. So lovely of her !! ;D
Was damn unlucky , that i lost my 1 another nose stuck . D: moody*


Meet my gorgeous beloved nicole mei at parkway shopping center by 3pm plus . Accompany me for interview . Aft that , we went for a walk around . .. Until was abt 5pm plus , took a bus to douby ghuat at plaza.S for a walk . ... Till was abt 6.30pm plus around , zhengwei grandmother call me && asked how was my interview . LOLS . :D she is abit of "luo shuo" =.=' she keep on want me to go home earlier && dont stay too late or whatever . Hahaha. Ok well . I knw that i was quite bad to say abt that . I knw that she is also good , worrring abt me && Cares' abt me . Btw , rly thanks for her caring . Haas . Aft that , we was abt to leave plaza.S . Nicole mei was damn angry abt one of her friend nicholas . Cos' we was waiting him till was abt 2hrs' plus around , I Guess . && she keep on calling & bombing his hp/phone . Yet he nvr even ans in btw this 10-20plus call , i think . .. Endup , finally he pickup the call . So we walk to town at fareast to meet him . ..... 8pm plus , went for a dinner . Then was abt 9pm plus . Bus down to esplanade for 3 of our emoing . .. 10pm plus , another of her friend shereen is coming along . ... So endup , i've decided to ton w them . Bus back to town at cine for k-box . .. Singing , drinking && smoking . Haahs , have something good news ((: this time drinking , i wont be down/get drunk easily ! ;DD great , rights ? MUHAHAHAS ^^ ... 4am plus , tgt cab to 2/3places . Nicole mei went to hougang shereen house for slp . Cos' they both are too drunk ==' strong of liquid smells . Hmmm ... aft that , nicholas accompany cab to my house . Aft that needs to went back to hougang to find both of them . Btw , i would lyk to thanks to my beloved nicole mei && her friends . (: aft all , sorry for all of my troubles ! )';
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Aft e' last night tonning , i sleep for only 3 an hrs' plus . Cos' i have a interview at 3pm . ... Aft rush back to aljunied the library . Thought of happily fetching my brother . Endup , get a big surprise frm him . Which is he put aeroplane to me . SO SOMEBODY PLEASE TELL ME WHAT A BIG WORDS OF "FUCK" WAS IT ?! Aft all , i rush here && there for heading towards to the place . What a big "SIGH" for me ?! Why ?! Hais ! A few days back , have a big quarrel w my mother agian && agian . Guess that her depression is more worsen . I think of that her depressed is making me as a same kind frm her . I think these is more worst to have this kind of mother that i have . She says that she dosent have me this daughter . So what's the big problems w her ? Ok , well . Dosent have , dont have ! Whatever ! I also dosent or dont rly Cares' abt this matter . You think i want it meant to be this kind of wicked ways ?! There is rly no choice to or for me to made my mind up . Just take her as a mental auntie person in my house ! FCUK-IT! I was feeling so down . All of negative things , thoughts/thinking coming in my mind or to my head . My life was so full of sucks ! I keep on thought of weather to leave out peace of the rest of my life , giveup my life && thoughts of negative things . I cant even stop myself frm thinking . Maybe this is a challenge of my life my punish-ment of my life . Why , can someone tell me why && why ?! I dont want to the hell lyk this ! I want back the previous of myself . Aft all , so much stressed up in my mind my head . Can't get off , cant piss-off . Im nt happy . I cant even seems to be happy . Maybe im nt meant to be happy . Maybe im to blame . Everyone seems to fault on me . I felt my life is wasnt worth enough again . I felt my life is so meaningless to live in/on , really . Sucide ? Maybe , i should just wait tml cames to kill myself agian .
It killing me.....

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Went redhill to meet ziyang didi && 2 of his friends .
Awhile more , 4 couples cames . Ziyang didi of his realblood bro Ziliang w her gf .
&& shermen w her gf . :D so long didnt went to see thems alr .
Shermen is lyk the most , he even lyk MIA ==" Hahaha.
Slacking till 10pm plus , took bus64 back to my house voiddeck to
slack awhile w my childhood playmates xiaoen , her darling xnas ,
xnas father , keith && friend . {:

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Today now , was rotting at home .
Aft hanging out so many days , am tired .
Should take sometimes for rest .
.....Awake this morning , my nextdoor xiaoen mother
came back w bibi . Haahs , bibi is so cute !! ;D
Bibi came in my house awhile && went back . Lols.
... was boring , right now . Can someone please save me ?
Sigh ~ i missed him so much . I keep on wondering what
he's doing fine now ? It almost been 1weeks over ,
seems lyk didnt even received a letter frm him .
Tell me what's happened to him ?
Is he alrights ?! (; does anythings happening inside ?
I had been missing all those jokes frm him ..
=(

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Just lyk this- Our footprints in the sand may fade, but the memories are here to stay.....

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Happy birthday to Xiaohao notiboy ! (;

Happy birthday to huiping dearest ! :D

&&

Happy birthday to shijie bro ! ;DD

Morning ! (; tired ~ Was kinda boring ! );
Continue ytd Question of a lil' short post .

1. If the world ends tomorrow ? You only have 24hrs' , do you think you has enough time to do all that ?
Hmmm .. If in this situation . I will be confused & dosen't know what should i do . && tomorrow is the world is ends . In this 24hrs' , maybe i would likes to respect && to be honest to my parents . && spent some times on my friend . Lastly , i would want to spend w him && tgt w my family ! (;

2. My most happiest and sadness moment ?
On my happiest moment is a real laugh/a smile on me . I dont really found out my life will be happy at all . Who will make me happy ? No . There is no one , truly . && on my sadness moment , 100% out of 99% . I mean 99/100% . D:

3. I like or hate singapore and where would you like to stay ?
Average . && i would like to stay or to migrate to japan . (:

Same lame posting agian ? LOLS . :D
I shall stop here le .
takecares peepos(!)

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Happy father day's !

G.Morning ! (; am so tired mans ! Now was damn early . Awww .. So sleepy . Actually lately night i make my times 11pm for sleeping . For an hour past ltr . Im nt sleeping yet or over slept . Am tired . But , just dk why couldnt i sleep . Cos' maybe of my house opposite renovating of those irritating sound is so loud . So then is hard for me to sleep . Somemore plus my gastric last night . D: ... endup messaging w keith till finally i off to fall asleep ! :D hmmm .. Ltr around 10am , i have to meet zhengwei grandmother at bugis temple for 'bai bai' pray .

Here are 3 lovely of his letter whn i received . {:
the sweetest dream...Here was my lil' love for him ^^Alright, i shall stop here for my preparation.(:
Will be back to post =)

Hi Hellos , im back . {: today was my 1st day of meeting zw grandma;D
Hmmm .. Can see && feel that she is so concern abt zw .
Bt , idk how does zw feels . Does he still hate his grandma ?
Hope , that he have been forgive grandma alr ((: .....
Kinda bored right now . So i shall continue my ytd Question &
a short lil' post .

1. My Best Friend ?
Mine cheryl baobei mei . I can say all along i still treat eu as my best sister in my heart that will never change && always . Is just that we never contact for a period of time ?! && seldom chat or to talk much ? I know is im lazy to contact . && sometimes , i wanna text/call you & ask you out , but in the end didn't . Yes , my partern of a bad habits . I do have lots of bad habit . Im a fault . I don't have the courage to do so . Maybe im afraid you'll think im using you ? My birthday you celebrate for me ?! && to my nicole beloved mei toos . I miss going out w you . Both of you know ? Our sistership won't break so easily de right ?

2. What if i have one million dollar ?
I would like to buy all my wants =)

3. Why i like/hate my school ?
Dont ask . Nt schoolling anymore . D:

Lame again ? Will be continue tml agian == Hahaha.
Next is to post my today "Zhi Lian" pic !! ;D

LOLS . :D there's so much pic today =.="
Ok well , shall stop here luh.
takecares peeps(!) W loves';D